Why?

I read Crys Aigner's blog http://www.meandmyzacks.blogspot.com/. She lost her little girl Alexa over a month ago to cancer. Alexa was 4 years old and reminds me so much of Jordan. My heart breaks for this Mom. I read her blog and I want to question God as to "why"? Interesting enough I just watched on Larry King Live an interview with the Christian singer, Steven Curtis Chapman. His son accidently ran over their youngest child and she was killed. When it happened, another son said he grabbed his brother, hugged him, and looked up at the sky and yelled several times "why"? I can't put myself in this woman's shoes because I haven't lost a child but I do think about how I would feel if that was Jordan or Katelyn that I couldn't hold one more time, touch their hair, look into their beautiful brown eyes, or simply say I Love You too. I just can't imagine and I think that is why I feel so much for this Mom. You want to help in some way and realize no one can take away this pain. Her beautiful precious little girl is gone. Alexa's Mom aches for her. I get tears in my eyes when I think about it too much. I say a prayer at night and thank Alexa in heaven lately for once again making me realize how lucky I am to have my family. It is the best feeling in the world to be able to reach out and hug and kiss on my girls and have a wonderful husband as well. Last night while laying in bed, Jordan was laying next to me watching a movie and I was reading a book (almost never happens!). Daddy is traveling so Jordan says she has his spot! She suddenly looks over at me and says "I love you Mommy". I don't think it can get better than that! Those words make my whole day! I wish with my whole heart Crys Aigner could hear those words again. I hope Alexa visits her in her dreams and her beautiful sweet soul tells her Mommy this many times over. Why does th is Mom have to go through this??? Why does any Mom have to ever go through it? My worst fear use to be to burn to death (don't want to be cremated because of this). Now as a Mom, my worst fear is losing a child. As an aside, Jordan and Katelyn's Daddy comes home tomorrow! Yeah! As Jordan said this morning, "one more day Mommy"! PS Alexa's Mom wants to build a pink park her daughter talked about. Every dollar counts so when she says how we can help I may forward the info on. A pink park would be beautiful! I know my girls would love it.